That’s about enough of the “I was so GOOD, I DESERVE that”.
Please don’t take this the wrong way, but… are you a child?
Are you being a “good girl” or a “good boy”?
I, for one, have used this on my kids many times. “If you’re good, you can have ____”.
Hell, maybe that’s why we still use it on ourselves!
But the time has come to just stop it. It’s not serving you well.
It creates a loop of negative behaviour that prevents forward progress.
Rather than rationalizing your behaviour, own up to the choices you are making.
You are CHOOSING to have the thing… you don’t DESERVE to have it.